one day there won't be a need for this, I'll have it, something to replace this, the confident, the optimistic, the hopeful, the cheerful, the lovable, mine, the other part, to make sense of this world, the mist in the morning, the wind in the trees, the light in the sky, the other, the helpful to the needy.

so many things i haven't done, new experiences that require others, in not insecure any more, but i lack knowledge usually gained from that period of my life, i just don't get a couple of things.