cancer is the great fuck up in life, its ruined everything in my world, what do i have to do to suck it out, it fucking sucks, to watch someone die, its horrible, to watch the relationship break down, family no more, brother against brother, a great divide, schism, the motherfucking sundering of everything, the breakdown, decomposition of everything.

i think i'm low, lowest i've been in a while, all i see is blue, depression