the first time i'm actually lost for words, there feels like there is a bowling ball on my chest, i cannot breathe, i don't know what to do, i've lost her, i've lost her for good, i don't think i can get, fuck, this time its for real, i've lost her, my gold, i've lost her, i've lost to an unknown, obtrusive mother fucker, i couldn't go near, and he couldn't say away and he gets the girls, love lost out to infatuation, this has rocked the basis of everything that i had believed in, wow, fuck, i lost out because i was to chicken shit to ask and now that she is gone and work up the courage because someone else has her, my girl. my November, my ray of light in the darkness, fuck