confession

I've never wanted you so much, it burns, for the first time i cried last night in my bed 'cause i wasn't next to you, i want to wrap my arms you and hug you 'till we become one being, i miss talking to you, your the sun to my dark mind, and you, for the first time didn't speak to me, it was like you ignored me. I'm trying to figure out why but cannot point out a cause.
i still remember the first time you touched me, it shocked me and amazed me at the same time, the first person ever to do that. i left with a buzz that night, you probably think I'm petty, that it was nothing, but you don't understand my life, I've done so well to cloud myself, make me known to no one, no one knows anything, to any big extent, because I've allowed and encouraged it that way. yesterday i failed for the first time, I'm not copying well with it. can you tell?
this is my first ever confession